Javier is going to be 7 months old on 11/22. He is incredible. At times, I can't even describe what I feel for this little being. He is at an age where everything is of interest. It's like....he woke up! It's so wonderful to see. His eyes go to anything and everything and he wants to touch everything. I love to look at his eyes as he explores, as he learns, and I try to look for any impressions. Colorful, bold images are his favorite and he touches them gently as if he thought they were fragile. He has these little animals that look like they're walking across the drapes in his room and every morning when I raise the shade he smiles at his little friends. He reaches out to them and puts his hands to them - it is the most endearing thing ever.
We felt his first tooth about a week ago. It's his bottom left tooth and I have to say that it was exciting, but sort of strange too, to discover. I didn't think I'd feel any sort of emotion, but I did. I just think that it's amazing how time flies and how quickly people grow. It was just a reminder that he's definitely growing, thriving, and evolving, and it is beautiful to capture.
Lately, I've really been trying to live in the moment. I've tried for many, many years and it's truly hard. I get so caught up on planning and coordinating that I hardly think of the present moment. I'm doing it now as I write - I hear my son and husband playing and I'm thinking, "OK, as soon as I'm done here I'm going to throw a load of laundry in the machine and then clean, and then feed the baby!" I realize that I do this everyday, whether I'm at home or at work.
I need to stop multi-tasking too. I think that's detrimental to living in the moment. I want to thoroughly experience everything that I do because it's not only good for my brain and thought process, but also for my emotional well-being. I won't stress or worry and I will possibly just go with the flow. I believe that if I do this, I will cherish every moment with my new little family. There will always be things to do, but needing to do them all at the same time isn't and shouldn't be so important. There is a time for everything and if I teach myself this, and do it well, then I know I'll be passing along to my son something that is good to live by.
