Well, since I have nothing else to do right now but wait, I'll write about what I've been feeling these days. It's amazing that a few days of being "overdue" can have such an impact. I should know by working in a prenatal clinic that being overdue is no big deal, but when it's happening to YOU, you can't help but feel restless, antsy, and OVERDUE!
I believe that medical providers should not provide a due-date. Our society places too much pressure on what that means. Once you're passed that date you're "overdue," and it seems to gives it such a negative connotation. People and you yourself start to wonder, are you not healthy, what's going on, they wonder in general, "what's wrong?" But the reality is, nothing is wrong. A woman should be able to have a baby between 37-42 weeks without there anything being wrong. I think medical providers should just give you a month that you'll most likely deliver and that's it. That way, that due-date isn't so anticipated and it doesn't become such a huge dissapointment.
At times, I feel totally chill. I think, this baby will come when he's ready and my body is preparing for that day, whatever day that is. Rational, calm, positive, right? Well then, I wake up every morning, crabby as heck from not sleeping comfortably, and think, GOD really - just another day? That feeling does go away though, b/c I think I'm getting closer and closer and I simply have to be positive.
I've tried things like walking, stairs, eating pineapple, spicy food, a little beer and wine here and there, pedicure, foot massages from my dear husband, and I use the exercise ball a lot. But nothing seems to happen. I feel "normal" a lot of times and think is this real, am I ever going to have this baby? I truly wonder, but know, that eventually yes he has to come out. I really don't think that doing all these things will induce labor anyway. I think if you happen to do it and you do go into labor, I believe it's more of a coincidence. I could be wrong, but who will ever know?
Anyway, I do get nervous and anxiuous when I think of the moment I go into labor. My heart skips a beat just thinking about the moment that my water will break, or I see a mucous plug, or I have a massive contraction. I hope that being nervous and scared is common - I don't want to be because I know that it can interfere with labor and with letting your body do what it needs to do, but I can't help it! I will do my best to remind myself that I need to relax, be in the moment, and REALLY let my body do what it needs to do. I like to think that I'll be doing all of this with my husband, and also with the baby. That we will all being doing this together and that we'll be a great team. It's all I can hope for.
So now, I'm super-excited. Just can't wait to meet this little babe. To greet him and to hold with my arms and hands. I know it will be one of the most spectacular, terrific, amazing, moments and maybe a moment I won't even be able to describe... I hope to post soon after I deliver so that I don't forget what that whole experience was like.
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