Motherhood

I don't have much time to write these days, but I wanted to post a few words while Javier takes a short nap. Naps for the little dude aren't as long like the first few weeks. It's so fun to be there when he wakes up because he's all warm and cuddly. He's more awake now during the day, which is great b/c we're really getting to know each other...

Here are a few words that describe early motherhood:

emotional
taxing
lots of coordinating
lots of guessing
sleep-less
unpredictable
sore, and i mean SORE, nipples
hungry every hour (hasn't change since pregnancy...)
you don't quite feel like a mother yet, just trying to survive
you get excited when your baby poops!

It's been a month since the baby has been born and so much has already changed. He notices me a lot more now, I'm learning all of his cries, I know what his needs are (for the most part). I am starting to feel more and more like a mother, but it's pretty surreal. Part of it is that my days are spent at home. Javier eat, sleeps, cries, and poops and I do the same! I do try to take walks about every other day and we get visitors from time to time, which is nice. I shower quickly when he naps and I do have a short list of things I usually like to get done around the house. I like to prioritize so I don't feel like I haven't done anything else. I don't do much though because most of my time is spent with the baby. My mom keeps telling me to enjoy every moment we have with the baby because they grow so fast. I know what she means... He's starting to feel heavier and look different. He might have even smiled at me a couple of times. Each week there's something new.

I've always been surrounded by women that become mothers and I always thought it would be easy for me. I've learned from day one that nothing is pleasant without sleep. I've learned that you feel much better when you shower and get out of the house. I've learned that this little boy will be the center of my life for the next oh, 18 years. It's amazing how becoming a mother, a parent, gives a whole new perspective on life. There's so much to enjoy, yet so much to worry about and so little time! I think becoming a parent is probably one of the most challenging things in life. Challenging in a good way. Life is about 20% about you, and 80% about the baby. At least that's how I think it is. I will continue to take it day by day and enjoy every minute because it is truly the best thing that has ever happened to me.